Good Grief

I was told that my girls are not safe with me, because I admit that there are some days I think it would be easier if I wasn't around. Because I look at what my issues have done to Goose & it hurts me. I think that is a normal guilt feeling though.

I was told that I lie about everything just so that people think I am ok.  That must mean my whole life is a lie, right?  wow - wouldn't it get exhausting trying to keep up with them all.  Maybe that is why I am so tired, not because I work full time, run a house (not very good, but I try), work 2 part time jobs, & try to have a life outside of all that. no, not at all

I was told that I lied because I applied for daycare assistance when we had low income.  Had I not applied, been approved & re-approved 6 months later, I would have been destitute.  I was told that because I did this, I was preventing people who really could use the help from getting it.  Yet I am the working poor & am paying for that help. 

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I let it be known that all the attention seeking was getting old.


I let it be known that I didn't think that it was safe for kids to be around someone who feels faint all the time.


I admitted that I AM better off now!! 

What was said didn't hurt me one bit, it was a huge RELIEF.


Sianara to that chapter of my life.  Thanks for all the lessons.