some unanswered questions ....
When and how did I use her? If I was using, would I take vacation days so I could take to doctors or EGD? Or leave work to go to doctors? Or sit in the ER for hours on end?
Why does it matter to me that someone else thinks I used her?
Why does it bother me that I am being ignored? or Why is silence the worst criticism?
Why do I feel empty?
I may add more later when I can remember them. I should of written them down as I laid awake in bed last night.