a do over please?????
It was a Monday that sucked the big one!! Starting out with I have royally messed up - AGAIN.
I went with my raw emotions and said what was on my mind - it should never have happened. Talk about immature impulses - hey didn't I blog about something like this before - yeah here.
I owe a huge apology to the person, but I have a feeling it is in vain. She already knows that I am sorry, but she is upset with me because once again I should have sat on my hands and said nothing. I have been trying REALLY hard to let this person know that I do care about her and do not want to see her suffering. I pray nightly for peace to come for her. *sigh* And with one impulse I have gone and thrown all the hard work out the window.
Well to continue that theme, work was horrendous - busy as all get out. I would get a corner of my desk cleared off then I swear a stack 2 times as big appeared. At 330 I remembered that I have to go into work early tomorrow for my Basic Life Saving renewal - a class that is 4 hours, leaving me 4 hours in the afternoon to do my work. That in of itself isn't a problem, but I wanted to have the majority of charts gone through before tomorrow. So I put my nose to the grindstone and got all that done. By 430 (quiting time) I had gone through the 30 surgery charts for Wednesday and ran to talk to Anesthesia twice. *phew*
As I was getting in my van I get a text from the sitter - Just a reminder pickup was 430, thank you. CRAP - it was 438 when I got this message, I work 30 minutes away (IF I break the speed limit by 15 MPH I can make it in 20- don't ask how I know) So I hurry and call the sick invalid at home and beg him to get the girls. The answer I get "well I guess." It is 5 miles there and 5 miles back, clench your butt cheeks together and take a puke bucket buddy boy.
We all made it home safe and sound. My clench the butt cheeks theory worked for me - got me through the day - hopefully I can do it again tomorrow. (Imagining practicing - 2 breathes 1 2 3 4 CRAP I think I sharted) No calls from the school means Goose was okay today also.
Oh yeah, us girls were sick this weekend, so all the weekend fun was canceled. It was great. Thank goodness we have 2 bathrooms in this house and 1 in diapers still!
Now you see why I want a do over??? Wait after re-reading, I just want the day to be over!