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Today's assignment was something that really challenged me to be honest. Honest with myself and my readers. I could say that when I look in a mirror I see a 32 year old woman that is happy with her life, herself, or her body - but that would be a lie. The dialogue that goes on in my head when I do face the mirror could fill a notebook. Here is just a snippet of what goes through my head.
When I look in a mirror I see:
- the fat little girl who cried herself to sleep
- the lonely child who just wanted to fit in
- an impostor
- someone who didn't deserve a second chance
- a horrible mother
These images are becoming fewer and farther between, allowing me to see glimpses of the beautiful woman everyone tells me I am. When my girls and I are laughing in the bathroom and I look up, I see her. When I have my power suit on, I see her.
Unfortunately, I know that I will always be too hard on myself, but my goal is to be able to see myself in a positive light 9o% of the time. It is assignments like this one that will help me get there. Writing down what you see is an eye opener because when you look in the mirror, you are seeing what your mind wants you to see and as you write you realize just how hard you are on yourself.
Norman Vincent Peale: One of the greatest moments in anybody's developing experience is when he no longer tries to hide from himself but determines to get acquainted with himself as he really is.